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What Actually Happens When You Ask the 36 Questions to Fall in Love With Anyone?
Love is one of, if not the most powerful human emotion of all. No other emotion in our lives comes with the possibility of being overwhelmed with so much joy and the potential for causing so much pain.
When it comes to love I was a late bloomer. I was 25 when I met my first girlfriend. She and my second girlfriends became casualties of my selfishness and fear of being alone. Even though I stayed in those relationships for more than a year, I knew within weeks I would end them.
As a person with a tendency to fall hard and fast for women who came into my life, vulnerability was my kryptonite. A friend who I dated briefly when I moved to Los Angeles described dating me as dealing with an impenetrable emotional wall, in which my guard never came down.
When I was 36 experienced my first real heartbreak. And nothing will make you reconstruct your walls like the pain of a heartbreak. In that moment, I felt like nobody would be worth enduring this kind of hell for.
But, it didn’t just break my heart. It shattered the structures of my identity and everything around me. . It forced me to look at my beliefs and come to the realization that all my self worth came from external validation and was a house of cards.
